Confuse

First.. I left the only last paper and is on Monday. It seem that I'm mood less to do any studying now. Might the influence that all my friends finished their exam and even some of them already went home. Besides that, something have been bugging in my head.. I lost appetite and I feel like I'm shrinking.. That's weird..

I feel that I'm back to the start. Just like the day before... Even though It have been few years why would it still be surrounding me.. Is that hard to let it go... I kept telling myself is over.. yea is over..
It try to talk to Carmen I guess she is just too busy.. I know what nothing can heal the scar.. as it already been an old scar.. I have to be determined enough to get over it. Its hard but atleast I tried and totally cutting off is not my type of tea.

Yes, I'm confuse.. I don't know what have to be done. Everything seem so discouraging.. and I have did found something, someone but yet, it doesnt work both way I guess. Or just being friend to know more about each other is a better choice. Atleast I have a close friends and I can tell anything to her. It has been said so that relationship doesn't start just by loving each other from the first sight.. that itself is just a spark. whelter this sparks helps it depends on both of the individuals. So interacting itself is far more important. Beside that, being comfortable and being yourself when you are around with her pays a important role in developing the relationships.

Maybe I just think too much.. Sometimes I wish it could be simple. Without the complexity around it just like solving 3 to 4 variable state equations. Haha I'm going mad. I guess I better start study.

Till then,
K y l e